Blurred by Kim Karr
Reviewed by: Michelle
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
ARC provided by author in exchange of honest review
☆☆☆☆☆ 5 Blurred Lines Stars ☆☆☆☆☆
Rock Bottom. Hell. Despair. Regrets. Alone. Lost. For Ben Convington, those words describes his personal turmoil and hell. A living hell, I might say where the lines of the past, present, and future begins to get blurred. They say to live life with no regrets but for Ben, his life is filled with regrets, what ifs, and sins. He is a lost man trying to find himself. And so begins, Ben’s tale of where he traces back to the days where his life, happiness, love and passion got BLURRED.
“I’m alone and left to pick up pieces to a life I don’t have. Rock Bottom. It’s a phrase I never thought I’d use to describe myself, but it’s the only one that fits.”
Blurred by Kim Karr was such an emotional book for me. I have always been a big fan of redemption. I love a story where an overlooked, disliked and misunderstood character finally gets a SECOND CHANCE. Who are we to deny a person a second chance? And so I was so happy to see that Kim Karr did just that. She made us understand the real Ben Convington. Behind Ben’s eyes is a man wanting to find his way but needs the support from his family and friends but most importantly, Ben needs to stand up on his own.
Ms. Karr goes in depth of the struggles and inner turmoil Ben goes through. It is not lighthearted or beautiful but RAW. Ben is a man exposed. His vulnerability is out there. His sadness is on his face. His hatred for himself is on his skin. His regrets and burdens lies deep within him. Through this touching storyline, Ben is finally getting his side of the story told. He is finally getting his chance to be UNDERSTOOD. I will not lie and sugarcoat it, Ben is not perfect but who is? We all make mistakes and fuck up but who are we to deny a person seeking redemption? The emotional tale of Ben finding his way, admitting his faults, and seeking redemption is a true testament of why BEN CONVINGTON captured my heart. The raw vulnerability and sadness is what made me love Blurred. Life is not perfect. The truth hurts. And behind Ben eyes, lies a man wanting to be free and happy. They say home is where the heart is. And so begins the tale of Ben finally transforming his once blurred life into a life filled with hope and new possibilities. Will Ben be finally given his chance to be understood and redeemed?
“I watch the sky come alive with so many vibrant hues, starbursts of color, and showers of light. And as ribbons of smoke blur the sky, I can say for the first time in a long time, my path is clear.”
All I can say is go read Blurred. Find out the truth. Read his side of the story. Don’t judge a book by it’s cover. Ben deserves his side to be told. And most importantly, his chance to find love and happiness. So I can happily say, Ben Convington stole my heart. And I want to thank Kim Karr for allowing us to give Ben a chance in Blurred. I look forward to reading Frayed. Can’t wait to read more of Ben and his tale of redemption, love, and happiness. And so begins when the lines are no longer blurry in Ben Convington’s life.
Reviewed by: Kathleen
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
By: Kim Karr
5 gut-wrenching ☆☆☆☆☆'s
From the first page of the story it already had my emotions bouncing off the wall. The pain that Ben was feeling was excruciating. Losing a loved one is not something I can handle and imagining myself in his shoes, I just couldn't, it's heart breaking, gut wrenching and I wouldn't know what to do with myself.
Ben gets drunk and comes home and fall downward into unconsciousness, becomes dead to the world. It was his routine in the beginning to erase all the bad things that had happened around him, atleast that's what he thought would help him forget. I didn't like the fact that it was his way of tackling his problems, but who am I to judge when knowing for a fact that what he's been through was so horrible. So drinking was him trying to put himself out his misery. It's his way of numbing all the pain and sorrow he was dealt with.
Trying to change his way of life wasn't easy. He did his best to better himself. He had to find his old self or else he would end up losing everyone he had left. I so believe in karma and what he did to Dahl was unacceptable, I'm so against cheating. Now he hates the fact that what he did to Dahl was wrong. Everyday of his life, there wasn't a time that he did not think of the guilt and the pain he had caused Dahl. I don't condone on cheating, not one bit. BUT when you read Ben's story, you'll get to know and understand where he's coming from and will change how you see him and feel about him.
This book just pulled me in and had me so emotional and wrecked after reading Ben's story. I wish the choices he made was different, but no one is perfect, he's only human after all. We all have the power over depression...from personal experience and it wasn't easy to overcome. Some people could go suicidal or some could just turn to someone else worse than anyone could ever think of. Feeling all alone in the world, thinking that everything you touch, you destroy. And that it's the end of the world, is pretty much what you will feel when you are buried deep into the black hole. Some people aren't strong enough to rise from depression, but some are, it's just the process that needs patience. I totally loved this book. KIM KARR you've done it again and I will always keep coming back for more.